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PROVERBS 31:25This blog series has been brewing in my spirit for months.  I kept putting it off and never got down to writing because I felt that it would be rather duplicitous of me to write about something that I haven’t fully “got right” yet.  But I was reminded that I don’t have to “have it together” all the time – I am not supposed to draw others towards me, but to invite them to follow me as I follow Jesus.

Therefore I call for my readers to read this series with this fact in mind: The battle with fear is still an all-too-real struggle for me.  I do not write this with flippancy from the vantage point of “Been there, done that”, but as a fellow pilgrim/sister/friend/comrade who is still learning to overcome.

Fear is a four-letter word.  It really, really is.

I have battled with fear all my life and have found it to be a shape-shifting beast.  It takes on the form of many things – stage fright, shyness to make friends in school, insecurities, fear of failure, fear to give and receive love, etc. – but behind the assorted facades is the same stinking fiend.

This brute’s latest guise made its appearance in my relationship with Alex.  Contrary to the trend of most young women, I love singlehood and I have never been afraid of “being left on the shelf”.  Rather, one of my greatest fear was getting into a relationship leading to *gasp* marriage – that was the major Fear, with lots of little minions of little fears attached to it.

When God made it very clear that Alex was the one He had chosen for me (I might eventually write a series on our story), I said “Yes” because I love God, I know He has the best plan for my life… and you just kinda do not question the wisdom of the King of the universe.  Obviously, I knew that this relationship came with changes – most significantly my “never get married” plan, which I had boldly declared to many people.  What I didn’t know was that my Abba Father, in His great love for me, refused to allow me to remain under fear’s power much longer.  Instead, He was going to have me face this long-standing adversary, using my relationship with Alex as the means with which He drew me out of hiding.  It has been a journey, and I am so thankful for Alex who has been ever so patient and gentle with me in the midst of the mêlée.

One day as I prayed in despair of ever triumphing over the fear that loomed over me like a mountain, the Lord spoke to me about Proverbs 31:25.  God’s Word is like a mirror that we can peer into and examine the condition of our heart; I peered into this mirror and saw that my life was not quite in line with what was written.  Proverbs 31:25 says that the woman of virtue “laughs at the days to come,” but wait just a blooming minute now… why in the blazes am I terrified of the days to come?!

Thus began a learning process for me, and the birth of this blog series.  This series is based on Proverbs 31:25 “she is clothed with strength and dignity, and she laughs at the days to come”.  This is the inheritance of ever daughter of the King, but so many girls struggle with fear, insecurities, and the unknowns of the future.

I have gathered a panel of women whom I know and have observed up-close over time, who possess an innate peace and contentment regardless of their circumstances.  These women are from different walks and in different seasons of life, but with one startling similarity: They always seem to trump worry with peace, fear with joy.

It is with great excitement that I introduce these women to you through a series of interviews. Stay tuned for the first one, coming your way real soon!

  • ShemNovember 16, 2012 - 9:23 am

    Hi Samantha! Interesting and very enlightening read. WIll share this with female friends of mine, especially the younger ones. Hope it will be an inspiration and encouragement to them. Keep on writing! Be blessed!ReplyCancel

    • Samantha LeeNovember 17, 2012 - 4:46 am

      Thanks for the encouragement Shem! Hope the young ladies will be blessed, I am so passionate to see young men & women who would live lives completely sold out for God, even in the areas of romance and relationship.ReplyCancel

  • smallrocherNovember 16, 2012 - 9:36 am

    Awesome awesome samantha! im truly encouraged and inspired by what God is doing in your life. Keep writing!:)ReplyCancel

    • Samantha LeeNovember 17, 2012 - 4:44 am

      Thanks rochelle, let’s keep living for the glory of God (:ReplyCancel

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The Point of Beauty

“Charm is deceptive, and beauty is fleeting; but a woman who fears the Lord is to be praised.” Proverbs 31

To conclude this series, now that she has been beautified in her inner chambers, how is the princess to enter the presence of the King?

When one goes before a King, rather than expect a gift, one should always bring a gift.  At that point in the presence of the King, it is no longer about me; the focus is on him.  It is about the King – what he likes, what he dislikes, what he wills.  The whole purpose of the beautification and preparation process was simply this: To please the King.

Reaching the zenith of inner beauty is not the main point. The beautification is simply a means to oneness with Him; to access new depths of intimacy with, and for the pleasure of, the King . All beauty and charm fades, and at the end of all things when it’s all been said and done, only one thing remains – Did I live my life for love of the King?

Therefore, it is worthy to note that in our quest for inner beauty, we must not forget Who we are doing it for.

  • ELIZABETH AGUIRRESeptember 21, 2012 - 4:28 pm

    I mind, the beauty presence of God is the most important, in that point , I can say: the world is full from things THAT are not important because this things don’t have eternity….ReplyCancel

The Beautification Room Vision

I want to share a very timely message that Susan O’Marra received from the Lord a few days ago.

In the vision, I saw that we all had entered into a building and our feet were set into these moving tracks. The tracks kind of reminded me of what a car wash track is like, as it brings you through the stages of a car wash. But this was a building, and we were all standing upright with our feet locked into these tracks, and we were moving forwards slowly, and now we were about to enter through a door. I knew that there were many others with me, although I did not see them, I could feel them and hear them around me. The building was vast, and the whole floor was full of tracks, and all of us had our feet in the moving tracks. We were all moving forwards at a steady pace. The room we were in was not furnished in any way, it held only the tracks. “It must be a receiving station of sorts”, I thought to myself. I was jolted as I realized that we now were entering another door and this room was full of fire.

As soon as the door fully opened, I could hear the screams of the people all around me that also saw it, as they realized they were going to be propelled into the fires. The thing was that none of us could move, because our feet were rooted in the tracks that were moving us forward, and this realization brought great agitation to them, and I could hear them struggling to get free, as I knew that many did not want to go into the fire. We entered into the fiery room and the first thing you felt was the force of the heat waves that were thrown off by the heat from the fire. The air itself was pulsating and swirling hotly with the fire. We were all in the flames. I could smell burning hair, burning flesh, loud crackling sounds, loud moaning, many people were still wanting out, and most were shouting or crying. I could also hear a few singing, and many praying as it was coming from many areas in the room. I did not feel any physical pain in my body in this fire, but I felt the Lord burning painfully inside of me as the fire. His Fire was wafting in the air all around me. I felt the swirling of His Love, and the passion of His Heart. I then saw His very Heart burning in the flames in the room.

I could see from where I was in the tracks that the Lord was removing from everyone the things in their lives that had robbed them of the knowledge and the reality of His Heart, and the pain they were experiencing was real as they were being purged and refined in the sanctifying fires of His Jealousy and His Love. I felt the flames going right through Me, through my very core, and I could see the eyes of the Lord looking through every fiber of My being. I could see the Jealousy of His Love looking for anything that stood in His way, and I could feel Hs eyes burning through Me. I said to the Lord, “Lord, you have My Heart. There is nothing that is not yours, and there is nothing that is withheld from you. I embrace you.” I felt Him wrap Himself all the way through Me, and the Flames intertwine and flow in and through Me in a deeper way. As we progressed through this room of flames, I could feel the moving of the tracks the whole time. Our feet were held fast to the destinations of the Father, and we were all moving through the rooms at the pace the Lord had for us all. I knew we were in the Lord’s Season and that we were also in the House of His Glory.

Ahead of me, I could see that another door was opening, and it was another room coming closer to us as we moved forwards on the tracks. When the doors opened, this next room was full of wind, and when the wind hit the flames in this room we were still in, I could see some of the people around me that were moving on the tracks, that were closest to me. They were red in color, some were orange in color, some were gold in color, some were silver in color, and some were ashes in color. I couldn’t see what others were, only those that the wind had swirled the flames from so that I could see the people through the flames. I looked down, and I was blue. I had turned blue in the flames and it looked like my skin was glowing blue from the fires within me. I heard the tracks click, and I looked up and we now entered the next room.

This room was filled with roaring wind. I mean that it was like entering into a room with a roaring jet engine in it. The rushing noise from the wind filled the room and you could hear nothing else. I looked to see if I could see anyone, but I could not see anything but the flashing of currents of wind in the air. It was like layers or thin streams of wind all stacked in layers, and they were all streaming and coursing, and rushing all around you and through you, at the same time. The wind was so loud that you could feel the sounds blowing through you. It was not painful at all, but it was unnerving as it unsettled everything within you. It felt like it was rearranging you at a molecular or atomic level. The rushing noises of the wind increased and increased until the loud rushing sound became a supersonic hum. I listened and I thought that I could hear voices in the hum. It seemed like the wind was vibrating and speaking and filling us with sound itself. It pierced through everything and it had a cadence to it if you concentrated long enough. I could feel Myself resonating to the humming. It felt like I was becoming the hum, or the vibration that was in the wind. I could feel the Lord in the Wind and I felt His Pleasure at this knowledge. Soon, I felt a peace. This Peace was like nothing I have ever felt. I was one with the Wind. I felt it, and it felt me, and I could feel the harmony. It was like I had melted into the wind. It was like I was in the vibrations, flowing in fluid motion. My thoughts were flowing, and I could then feel His Rest. My very cells, my very atoms, everything had been retuned to the Lord’s frequency and I was now at rest, at one with Him. I understood the purpose of His Winds, to bring us out of the disharmony of the fallen state or nature, and into the harmony of His true state or nature, that our very lives would be resonating with His Life.

I was jerked out of My thoughts by another loud jolt, and a sensation of coolness on my feet. I looked over to my left and I saw something falling in the wind. I thought to myself, there is nothing here but Him, what is this falling? Then I noticed that the next door had opened, and the next room was full of rain. What I saw falling as we neared this door was the beginning of the rains and of the transition to the next room. As we entered into this room, I could see the rain was clear, like water, but it was not water. It was Life. it was Life raining as rain, but it was alive. Each drop had Life within it and Spirit swirling within it, giving each drop a pearlescent look to it. As the drops hit me, I could feel a soothing but yet a surging hitting me. It was like shocks of energy and reality both at once. I could feel the Lord in every drop, and I could see Him too. Every drop revealed Him to you, and also into you as it watered you. I could see the others now that were moving on the same tracks as Me. Each one was the color that I saw them as before, but now they had a translucence to their colors. I could not hear anything from the others except soft crying, and some that were overwhelmed by His Love and Life. They were all standing with their arms raised and with faces lifted, they were weeping and speaking to their Lord. I also had my arms raised to the Lord as we were moving forwards on the tracks through this room. The rain fell in drops but the drops were so close together that it was more like a flow, but you could still see every individual drop as they fell. As the drops went into us all, I could see the translucence become thicker, and I realized that we were becoming like encased pearls or stones. I looked down, and I was still blue, but my blue was swirling inside too. Little rivulets of water swirled within Me and I could see bright sparks shooting in the fluid that passed through me. I knew that Life was recreating me as we were in this room. My blue was also growing thicker and it almost looked like it was solidifying and hardening as I looked at it. I tried to reach down to touch myself, but my raised hands wouldn’t move. I looked and no one else could move either.

Then I noticed a change in the atmosphere, it seemed like the rain was slowing and a golden glow was in between the rain drops now. I looked ahead and realized that we were coming to the next door and this room was filled with golden light. The golden light that was between the drops of ran here was the transition period between the 2 rooms. As we entered into the room of golden light, I felt such a Presence of God that I was frozen. It felt like my being was frozen, my atoms were frozen, my fibers were frozen. Everything was still in this light. It was soothing, but alarming. It entered through Me as well as filled Me. We were being flooded with golden light. It felt like every part of you was being stretched and filled and enlarged all at the same time. Like you were being filled with the universe in every cell. I was could feel the Lord’s Glory. I could feel His Awesome Being in the golden light, and also in Me. He filled all in all here. I could feel His very breath as it pulsed in the light. I faintly heard something. It was very soft at first. It was like a wafting lilt, or a gentle wisp of a breeze, except this was sound. It was hard to grasp in my thoughts. It got louder the more filled with the Lord’s golden light that I became. I then realized that the sound ad the light were the same. Within the Light was also His Sound, and His Reality, His very Energy or Spirit of Life. The awareness and reality of His Being was infused throughout Me, and it was also coursing through Me like an electrical current. I could feel Him at a very acute level, like I never could before. The Golden Light flooded Me with Him, and me with Him. I could feel Him moving and stirring inside of Me. It was an activation and a revelation converging with oneness and wholeness all at once. I don’t even know if this even begins to describe what I am sensing. COMPLETE. That’s the word, I thought to myself, I am complete in Christ. I laughed out loud as this hit me. I then heard the Lord laugh in the golden light too. I looked around and I could not see the Lord, but I could feel Him everywhere as well as in me. He laughed with Me, and He was laughing at me, enjoying my new discovery.

Suddenly, a great shaft of the brightest of lights hit the golden glory light that filled our room, and we were jolted by that light, and the track clicked and we were entering the next room in the building. The bright light was so white it looked like a wall of light, as bright as a 1000 suns and so brilliant that it blinded me. I couldn’t see anything! All I could see was light. But what I could not see, was made up in my other senses. I could hear, and smell, and taste, and touch myself now. I could hear singing, and talking, and shouting, and weeping, and footsteps, and movement all around us. I could smell flowers, and perfumes, and aromas of various sources all coming at us on the moving track. I could taste honey, and then I could taste bread, but not like earthly bread, it was more rich, and I could taste joy. Joy! I could taste joy, I knew this what I was now tasting was joy, I didn’t know that you could taste joy. I could hear myself laughing. I then heard a hush. I could feel trembling and awe moving through My being now. I could feel anticipation and expectation rushing all through me. I no longer felt my feet in tracks, but I could not see them, for the light was too bright. I could not move, but I also knew that we were not bound to the tracks anymore either. I could see some flashes of light within the bright light, and I realized that it was others moving around us. Angels were moving around us. I could feel their thrill to be with us and among us all that had come to join them. I then realized that we were in the Throne Room.

“Yes, you are in another part of My Throne Room,” the Lord said. I turned and Jesus was standing next to me. He was all Light. He was Light. He was Himself, but He was the Light. Light poured through His very pores. He smiled at me and said, “Yes, you are in My Beautification Room.” He took my hand, and instantly I felt my feet move and that we were walking in the room full of light. I could not see much as the light was so bright, but I did notice shafts of light moving by and an occasional movement of an object nearby. The Lord walked with me, holding my hand, and He brought me to a bench in the light. He motioned for me to sit. I sat down and He did too. I could see nothing but Him and even the bench was full of the same light, but I did feel it’s hardness under me. As Jesus held my hand, I could feel such strength pouring into Me. I felt Life and Strength in this Light, but the strength that was in Jesus now as different than I have ever felt it before. Jesus nodded and said, “Yes, it is, because you are now ready for more. I have been bringing you and all of My People through My process of refinements and I have held your feet to My paths because you asked Me to. Those that ask me to keep them on My Paths are brought through My various stages of refinement and transformations throughout their lives, but once you fully enter My House, it is here that My Beautification process begins. It is here that the real fires of My Heart Desires begin to deeper within you, and the Union with Me becomes a full reality. In this place there is no one else but Me. It is time for My People to come into the full knowledge of Me, but also into Oneness with Me. it is time that My Church lives it’s life through Mine. I am going to beautify all that are Mine, and in their transformation will be My New Wine and My Full Design. Right now you see dimly, but as you continue, I will bring all things clear as you finish passing through this year. Your eyesight will clarify and your flowing will continue to be growing until you all become one flow, as you flow here, you shall also flow there. I have given to you each others care.”

“Take care of each other, for they are your sister and brother, and I am beautifying all of you as you transition through. You have been moving in My Tracks, and you have been moving at My Pace. You just couldn’t see My Face. But now you will, for I have brought Myself to the forefront of your being, and as you look at each other, you will see Me in them. I have removed your self-filled-life from within your perceptions, so that you can now walk in My true Reflections. It is something that only I can do, but as you have prayed and have asked Me to do this work within you, I have been steadily working My deep work in you. That is why you have had to fight such a battle, for your soul does not want to die, but you broke through, and now I can beautify you. That is why you are all here. I have many individuals that come here, but few groups have come through as you all have. But you are a sign of My Higher Times. I have ushered in the End, even from the Beginning, and the High Things, even from the Foundation. I have planned for your generation. Most do not believe that life will continue or even flourish in this hour. They do not know of the things that I have reserved for your hour, nor do they comprehend My Upholding Power. I uphold and sustain all things. I began all things and I complete and fulfill all things. Everything is consummated up into Me. I am in full control of humanity and all that you currently understand as your reality. But I am not limited as men are limited. I am working a great work in the earth.”

“Many are just entering into the Fires of Judgment, some are entering My Cleansing Streams, but all are moving into their final positions. Every man will choose His destiny and walk with Me. But I am only showing you what I am doing in My House, for that is where you are to begin. Just as Judgment begins at My House, so does the construction of all that will be. I am building a Glorious Work into My People in this generation, and you all shall shine with My Light and Life, and reveal Me to all nations. You are My Royal Kings and Priests, who are clothed and beautified with Me. You have desired Me for your portion, and you have eaten and have partaken of Me. I am your Glory, I am your Light, and I am your Life. You are to walk in the knowledge of Me, and are to move as I speak within you. You are to be as Lights in the night. You are My Witnesses to this generation, that I am who I am. As you have learned of Me, teach them. As you have seen Me, show them. As you have received from and of Me, give to them. My Light will draw those destined for My Light, and many will find Me as you are all faithful. Let My Beauty flow, let Me flow, let Me go into all the world, within you. My Light shall increase in your eyes, and you will get accustomed to seeing Me more as I am, and you will continue to grow in your knowledge of Me. You are learning to be one with My Light, and as you do, all things will clarify around you, and your sight will mature and you will see just as I see; when you are with me, and also when you walk with men. I will show you the things that lie hidden within. My Light will both unseal and reveal all that is destined to be changed by me and also into Me. Leave the others to Me. You are to build My People up into Me, with Me.”

“My Judgment Fires have begun, and so have the Rearranging Winds. The masses see My works, and they shall also now understand that nothing will be the same again, and rightly so, for the earth is plunged fully now into My end-time flow. My Revealing and Healing Rains will add more to the transition as the peoples come to accept or refuse their life’s commission. The earth will shake; you will see many mountains break; the depths will rise up, and the plains will change. The earth is responding to My Call, and the upheavals will increasingly befall one and all. But this is not yet the end, this is My Workmanship, this is My Hand. Understand! I am bringing a full and final dislodging of all that has been entrenched within, which will shift man and your generation into the next phase, for I shall reveal Myself to all men, and you are only in the beginning of the end days. There is much left to be written of your days and of the acts of your generation that will yet be done. Take your positions in Me, and be about My Commissions. I will give you your daily missions, and I will be with you, and in you, and I will move through you. You are all learning to become one, and I want you to know that here in the Spirit, it is already done. You must walk it out on the earth diligently, and you must all do this faithfully, even more so in this hour, for I am at work in your midst and know that I see and hear all. Begin to think together, and act together, and love together, and move with Me as one, and move forwards in your assignments with Me, and into Me, and know that I am also ahead of you. I am beautifying you, so that you can all now move together into the new that I have for you.”

To please the King, I must listen to the King’s Chamberlain

Esther 2:9 says, “Esther was taken to the king’s palace and entrusted to Hegai, who had charge of the harem.  She pleased him and won his favor.  Immediately he provided her with her beauty treatments and special food.  He assigned to her seven female attendants selected from the king’s palace and moved her and her attendants into the best place in the harem.”

Esther won the King’s favor over all the other fairest maidens in the land.  From this I understand one thing: If I want to win the King’s heart, I must find favor with His chamberlain and listen to everything He tells me.  Only the chamberlain has access to the intimate secrets of the King; only he can tell me what the King likes and dislikes, which the public eye does not know.  Only the chamberlain knows what pleases the King.

And I have access to the Chamberlain of the King of kings. His name is Holy Spirit.

He is the one who knows the secrets of the heart of God and reveals them to us.  He is the one who gives us the right food to eat by showing us the right sermons to listen to, the right places to go, the right people to be with, and by illuminating the Word of God.

Holy Spirit is also the one to provide the beauty treatments.  Sometimes it is painful; we are baptized with fire in order that we would be purified and perfected.  And fire is intense.  It consumes everything that is consumable.

The prayer of the beloved in Songs 4:16 is, “Wake, north wind, and come, south wind!  Blow on my garden, that its fragrance may spread everywhere.  Let my beloved come into his garden and taste its choice fruits.”

The inner man is likened to a garden in the Songs of Solomon (E.g. Songs 4:12 & 16).  As the Chamberlain of the King, Holy Spirit prepares us with the beauty that He knows will move the heart of God, which is also represented in Songs 4:16 as the King’s garden where He will find choice fruits.  He is also the one, represented by the wind, who sends forth the fragrance which He has prepared in me, and brings it before the King.  We must always seek the favor of, and listen to, the Holy Spirit.

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  • bRIDGET LUGGERTSeptember 1, 2015 - 12:55 pm

    Shalom, I was reading the true beauty God desires, I was in awe! hallelujah ! I would like to receive updated post on my e-mail like & 3 friends are going on a prophetic womans camp from 24 SEPT-27Sept the yheme is healing rain-wow when I read the part 4 about the rain I just knew that’s a confirmation on what God is going to do.



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