I received the following in May of 2020. Each time I started to write it, I’d came under fire and needed time to recover before trying to write it again. God is our faithful healer and protector, when He speaks a word He actively works to ensure it goes forth to accomplish what He intended for it to do. I believe the battle in getting this written is as much a part of the prophecy as the words themselves. God is powerful and the enemy is very afraid!
Holy Spirit sat beside me. I say He sat beside me, but really He surrounded me. His tender heart felt like a strong physical presence beside Me while His essence – beautiful intensity embodied in incredible gentleness – was a warm wind wrapped around and poured within me. It felt like coming home, or being hugged with a warm blanket or biting into a warm chocolate brownie. I yearned to bury myself deeper in this presence of love and find myself infinitely known and belonged.
With quiet exultant jubilation, Holy Spirit said to me, “The handmaidens of the Lord will be His secret weapon. There is a war coming in the days ahead that can only be won by the feminine expression of Us. There is a special part of Our Personhood that the feminine carry, which the enemy cannot overpower.”
“The handmaidens of the Lord are Our chosen secret weapon against the enemy,” Holy Spirit repeated this joyful promise. “There is a crucial part in the coming war that requires the feminine, and they are needed for the war to be won. There are some victories only the feminine can achieve. Even now We are actively rallying, training, and strengthening these handmaidens in hiding.”
Who Is The Feminine Expression of God?
He fell silent and I waited. Silence with Holy Spirit is quiet but never dull, still yet pregnant with activity. Even when He is silent, His heart is turned toward me and I know He is highly in-tune with and alert to my every thought and emotion. He is the best friend and tutor anyone could have. As I enjoyed those few moments of silence, I noticed Him smiling at me with patient amusement twinkling in His eyes.
Holy Spirit’s eyes were so full of compassion and love as He continued shining that unrelenting light into a part of my heart that I had kept under lock & key for a long time. Realization dawned on me that while I had remained silent when He spoke, my heart had experienced a vehement knee-jerk reaction, “Oh great, not another feminist word about women. How many women-empowering meetings & ministries are even effective, beyond being little more than a temporary feel-good for women at best, and anti-masculine at its worst?”
With patient understanding and an earnestness that made me feel that it was very important to Him that I got this, Holy Spirit explained to me, “The feminine expression of Us is in all humankind, not just women.”
I felt the increasing weightiness of His great joy and deep sorrow as He spoke.
“In Our image we created Adam and Eve to possess both the masculine and feminine expression of Us. We designed every single person with the fullness of Our glory, therefore they carry the complete DNA of the 3 of Us.
Masculinity and femininity have little to do with gender and much to do with the attributes of Our nature. We are Masculine as father and King who is powerful, strong, a provider, deliverer, leader, and protector. We are Feminine as the mother and nurturer who is gracious, merciful, tender, and loves beauty and intimacy.
We have revealed through scripture that We are both masculine and feminine in characteristic. We even designed the human anatomy to mirror Our image in this way. Human reproductive glands manufacture both male and female hormones. Women’s ovaries produce small but significant amounts of androgen, a male hormone. Likewise, men’s reproductive organs also produce a small but significant amount of estrogen, a female hormone. No one is 100% male or 100% female – not even the most “manly” man or “womanly” woman can claim this distinction.”
At this point, my mind was reeling as it scrabbled to intellect itself back to solid ground. I could feel myself pulling away from Holy Spirit, back-peddling as my mind rebelled against what He was saying even while my heart & spirit hummed and soared on what it knew to be true.
Holy Spirit, ever the counselor and the Initiator of Love, stretched out His arms (how far could those arms go?!) and put them around me. Pulling me close, He said, “Don’t be afraid.” Then ever the insightful Conscience, He tackled the heart of my struggle, “You are not being a heretic. Neither are you ‘going weird’ as you call it. But yes, this will not be an easy message to deliver because the enemy has sown such misogyny and chauvinism in the church, even amongst those who love Me, that it has almost completely shut down the complete expression of Us.”
He paused and I knew He was waiting. Holy Spirit’s fire can consume everything in its path, but He is so gentle with it. It would grieve His heart to do so, but I knew without a doubt that He would honor my wish if I said I didn’t want to hear anymore. This much God climbs into our humanity, weakness, and sin. This much He loves and hopes in all things’ eventual good.
How could I resist? I felt His beam of joy toward me. We continued the lesson.
“If anyone made a thorough search of the Scripture, they would find the masculine and feminine traits of Us equally distributed. Deep wounds have been sown into the earth since the enemy first divided Adam & Eve. Their separation from Us, and therefore each other, resulted in gender wars and a distorted, fractionated image of Us.
Some of the sons of Adam took on the masculine (conquest, acquisition, performance) and rejected the feminine (relationship, tenderness, conscience), resulting in a horrible disfigurement of Our masculinity into war, strife, violence. Some of Our sons, realizing that something was deeply missing, took on the false feminine and rejected the masculinity within them. That, too, was a distortion on Our image.
Some of the daughters of Eve took on the feminine (relational, intuitive, sensitive) and rejected the masculine (strength, assertiveness, boldness), resulting in a grievous fracturing of Our femininity into fear, manipulation, control. Some of Our daughters, realizing that something was deeply missing, took on the false masculine and rejected the femininity within them. That, too, was a distortion on Our image.
When men and women learn to live in harmony, honoring the gifts & differences in the other, Heaven comes on earth just like it is in The Garden. When a man honors the women in his life, they draw out Our femininity within him (kindness, home, comfort) while amplifying his masculinity and he becomes a better man for it. When a woman honors the men in her life, they draw out Our masculinity within her (courage, confidence, energy) while amplifying her feminity and she becomes a better woman for it.
The feminine expression of Us is in both men and women, and We are actively at work in this season to awaken it within the hearts of men and women.
There is a coming war that can only be won when Our feminine image is allowed to be fully expressed. This is especially true for women, Our chosen handmaidens. But it is just as important for men to embrace Our feminine heart within them.”
The Attack On The Feminine
Love’s presence continued to rise & swell in both intensity and gentleness. I felt so safe. Holy Spirit continued, “The enemy is afraid and has sought to silence the feminine voice. The 3 of Us agreed that I would speak with you today because so much of femininity was made in My image. I am the Comforter, Healer, Counselor, and Friend. My name Ruach is feminine. I am the Spirit, or Essence, of Our presence Shekinah, which is also feminine. I am here to call out Our feminine within the hearts of Our children, and I will teach them how.
Male and female, We created mankind in Our image. Our glory is fully known on the earth when the masculine & feminine come together.
Now, I want to tell you specifically about Our femininity within women… and the special place these handmaidens have in the days to come.
Eve and her offspring were given a mandate to defeat the enemy. This is why women & children have a special sensitivity to things of the spirit. Walk the halls of history and you will see that where the voices of the women and children are valued, there is an openness for things from heaven and sharp discernment against demonic agendas.
When a woman stands fully in her identity and femininity of God, she is an unstoppable force; much like a rushing river, or a blazing fire… like Me. Knowing this threat, all through the ages Satan has launched a brutal assault on the thing he fears – the feminine image of God, especially in women. He has sought to silence the sensitivity of the feminine heart to things of the spirit. He has incited abuse, oppression, and an abhorrent devaluing of women. The more godless the society, the more unspeakable acts executed against My feminine heart.” Holy Spirit roared as His fierce protective anger burned against the enemy.
“How many people groups would’ve seen great innovation, fewer wars, healthier families, a more beautiful society… if My daughters had spoken all they saw & knew. We took Eve out of Adam to be his ezer – ‘a power equal to the man’. Together, as equal strengths, they are the perfect image of Us.
The assault on the feminine has greatly diminished its true significance. From the time of Eve, Our daughters have had an enemy rabidly determined to wipe them out. For he knows they are the key to his destruction.
In turn, Our daughters have sought to survive this cruel assault in two ways. Some have gone covert; submitting to the rulership of men and staying silent when they should have taken a stand, resorting to manipulation to get what they knew was theirs. Others have gone overt; denouncing the men by taking on their masculinity, declaring a war through aggression and intimidation to secure the place they knew was theirs.
We have seen Our daughters used, abused, bruised, broken, abandoned and rejected, and it grieves Us deeply. We have seen Our daughters hurting, distrustful of men… distrustful of Us…” there was deep grief in Holy Spirit’s voice.
Here, Holy Spirit paused. I met His searching eyes full of understanding, and light flooded every fibre of my being. He spoke to me gently, “Many of Our daughters are hurting. We do not condemn them, for We know what it is like to be an enemy of relentless evil. We know the weariness of battle and loneliness, the pain of rejection and abandonment.”
Holy Spirit’s eyes were so full of compassion and love as He continued, “Today is not a day to heap further condemnation on Our already-hurting daughters. I am here today to speak Destiny and Healing.”
The Call of Women: Embodiment of God’s Feminine Heart
“Come see the Man who told me everything I ever did.” – Photine, the woman at the well, John 4
“You are the God who sees me.” – Hagar, mother of Ishmael, Genesis 16
“Many of the handmaidens We have chosen are much like Photine and Hagar. These 2 beloved daughters of Ours, separated by a span of more than a thousand years, are similar in many ways and their lives are a prophecy of the coming company of handmaidens.
- Photine was a Samaritan outcast. Hagar was an Egyptian slave. They were relegated to the lowest rungs of society in their day. We have chosen such handmaidens who will win the coming war.
- Photine and Hagar were bruised, broken, betrayed, used, abandoned… chosen and comforted by Us. The handmaidens I am raising up in this hour have experienced great pain, often at the hands of men and systems run by men. I am meeting them in powerful ways in their hiding places, and like Photine and Hagar they will declare My love and nature to the world.
- Photine and Hagar were found by Us at a well. In this season, I am drawing Our handmaidens to the waters. I am awakening in them an insatiable, desperate thirst for Water. There, I will meet them, refresh, heal, and pour destiny into them.
- Photine and Hagar knew they were seen by Us, and through their eyes the world comes to know the depths of Our compassion. We are the God who SEES and HEARS. This is the name by which our handmaidens in training are coming to know Us intimately. They will emerge from their pain and rejection declaring, “He is the God who sees me”! Their lives will be My invitation to the world to come into My love.
Photine and Hagar were far from perfect. They were survivors, doing everything they could to make it in a system that was cruel to their kind. But look what became of them with just one encounter with Us.”
I heard such immense pride and joy in His voice as He spoke of them. I felt the love flowing from the heart of God toward these 2 women. Like a father beaming with pleasure at the child He is so proud of. “Photine was the first woman evangelist and is noted in history as “equal to the apostles” because she restored so many of Our children to Us. Hagar was the first person in scripture to call Us by one of Our names, El Roi. We are exalting our handmaidens of humble circumstances and broken hearts, because We know they are able to understand Our heart in a special way.
She who has been forgiven much, loves much.
Our handmaidens will be marked by brokenness, encounters with Us, and an openness & willingness to respond to Our love. They have a great capacity for loyalty, resilience in the face of challenges, and an unwavering certainty of Our Love for all humankind.
We are announcing these things today for the Church to watch and see. It is not something for them to do.
Only We can raise up Our handmaidens and prepare them for the war ahead; only We can impart to them the special anointing to win it. No man or woman can have their fingerprints on this company of handmaidens. They will be taught by Me, kept pure and unsullied by human wisdom. They belong to Us.” I felt the protectiveness of Holy Spirit over God’s handmaidens, and it was so full of love.
“No one will know who they are, or where they shall come from. They will be hidden deep wells of revelation and power, and no one will know it. This cloak of invisibility is for their protection. I will not allow them to be exploited, exposed, and attacked by the enemy. I will be with them. I will stay beside them through the entire process.”
Daughters of Zion, take heart. Jehovah’s favour is upon you. He SEES and HEARS you. He is coming to commune and overshadow you. Remain under the shadow of the Lord’s shelter, stay hidden in Him. Don’t be tricked into building your own life. His hidden handmaidens will be His secret weapons.
The truth will set His daughters free into hope and praise.
He is for us. He is with us. He sees us. He hears us. In Him, we have a hope and a future!
Restoring The Feminine To His Handmaidens
With deep fondness in His voice, Holy Spirit spoke again. The tender protectiveness in His voice reminded me of the camaraderie and unbreakable bond between two people who’ve been through great difficulty and emerged on the other side together. Holy Spirit has never left the side of the daughters of God, never.
“I am healing the memories and past sorrows.
The enemy has sought to attack the feminine by crushing it into submission, or distorting it into the false feminine (control, aggression, manipulation).
I want to heal you from your pain and trauma. I want to heal your wounds.
I am restoring My feminine image to My handmaidens. Especially the ones who feel so far from that; who feel so beyond redemption. I delight in lending My strength on their behalf. I only need emptied and willing hearts.
Daughters, don’t resist painful memories. I am revealing wounds long hidden so that I can heal them with My love. Let Me in to heal.
I am removing everything that blocks your heart to Love. I can be trusted with your heart. Don’t resist Me. I love you. Rest in My love and let Me do what I need to do for you.
I will come upon you, and My power will overshadow you.
I am making pure vessels out of you.”
The Pool of Forgiveness And The Meadow
Papa came toward me with a skip in His step and a merry look in His eyes, “Come and see.”
We were on the edge of the woods and entered a glade that looked like a meadow. It was wide, spacious, with springy grass of such vibrant green like no other grass I’d seen before. Papa led me across the meadow to the edge of the glade, coming upon a little pool surrounded by rock. The waters in the pool looked so… alive.
Papa held my hand and said, “This is the pool of forgiveness. My daughters will spend lots of time here in their preparation for the great war.“
Wading into the pool, Papa turned to me as I hesitated on its grassy banks. Reaching out His hands for mine, he pulled me gently into the pool and said, “Don’t be afraid. The water’s not cold. Lean back on Me and float on My arms. The waters in the Pool of Forgiveness are alive with My Life. The water will wash over you and in through you. It will wash you clean of hurt and unforgiveness. It flows through your innermost heart till all you feel is My love and forgiveness toward you and through you.”
As I floated in the water with Papa’s arm supporting my neck, I realized that the water was loosening some vines that had been wrapped tightly around my arms, legs, and torso. The vines had been there for so many years that I’d forgotten they weren’t actually supposed to be there.
Cradling my head, Papa said, “Unresolved hurt leads to unforgiveness, which becomes bitterness that will choke the life out of My children.
Before My daughters become handmaidens, I will invite them to linger here for a period of time. Let My love and forgiveness wash them from hurt and unforgiveness, and receive washing of forgiveness for their sin of unforgiveness and bitterness.
Sometimes, the hurt is too heavy for one of My little ones to enter the pool of forgiveness. When the trauma is great and they are unable to step past the banks, I carry them in. Their pain is not too heavy for Me. I understand and I am their help; they never have to do it alone. I lift them up in My arms and enter the pool with them.
When the pain is too overwhelming, cry out to Me and I will answer. I will come to save, rescue and deliver you. I will surround you with My love. I am your shield, your very great reward. I am your protector, you are safe with Me.”
As we came out of the pool, I saw that many of my wounds had begun to heal. Papa pointed to a thorn still stuck in my leg, “The person’s name still brings a sting to your heart. This sometimes happens when the hurt is deep or their words particularly poisonous.”
He told me to lie down on the lush grass of the meadow beside the pool. The air was fresh and I felt completely comfortable, not cold at all even though I’d just come out of the water. I felt peace descend around me like a blanket, “Rest, be still.” As His ministering hands gently but firmly pulled out the thorns and poisonous spikes that had pierced me.
I drifted off to deep, healing sleep while He drew out poison from my wound left by the thorns.
God’s Handmaidens: Warriors Who Crush Fear With Love
“… like Sarah… you are her daughters if you do what is right and do not give way to fear.” – 1 Peter 3
The fear and anger in the atmosphere over nations has grown so tangible it’s become like a physical cloud. I feel that there has been an attack especially on women and the feminine expression of God in both men & women. The enemy is afraid of the feminine expression of God because it is the woman, and the feminine, that will defeat the enemy.
Papa is not in a rush, not afraid of what’s happening in the world. He is not caught off-guard. He is perfectly at peace, in control. “Don’t give in to fear. Do not let your heart be troubled. Trust in Me.”
I felt myself being lifted up, past thick clouds of fear, delusion, and false realities that seemed to cover many parts of the world. I knew these clouds were attempting to cover all the earth. We broke easily into the atmosphere above the clouds and I was suddenly able to see & think with great clarity. I saw that the fears which had seemed so real beneath the clouds had only been false realities.
The enemy is a liar who has been creating illusions of false realities to cause fear. I saw that when we refused to be in agreement with those lies, they vanished like smoke. Only when we gave into fear did we come into agreement with those false realities. Our agreement permitted those fears an entry point, and gave them power to become real on earth.
“Remaining in My love dispels the clouds of fears and lies about your reality. Love takes you to where you can see clearly. The cloud of fear has increased over the past year and people are coming into agreement with those lies, thereby creating the very realities they fear. Perfect love casts out fear; you need only be still and remain within Love.
You were created from the midst of Love, within the love and fellowship of the 3 of Us. Remain within Us; perfect love is there.
My handmaidens will be daughters of Sarah. They will be brave and full of hope, not giving way to fear. Their eyes will be fixed on Me and they will see reality as I see it. They live in the wide open spaces of Eden where it is clear, bright, and sunny. They will create a tipping point of congruence with My Eden reality.“
Bet it unto us, according to Your word, Lord.