Hi friends, how’ve you been? Long time no see. I haven’t posted much in the public space (here, instagram, elijah list, etc) over the past year, and I thought some explanation was fitting before I share anything else. Just to lay your minds at ease, Alex and I are doing well! God has been very good.
(I know I still owe you guys the complete story of how we met, I’m working on that!)
Over the past year or so, the Lord has kept me in a place of incubation & hiddenness before Him. I haven’t been allowed to share or post much about my revelation and experiences in the secret place, and I know that the Lord wants these things to be kept sacred… for a time, maybe for all time, I don’t know but I’m just trusting & obeying.
It’s been a season of learning, unlearning, relearning, healing, waiting, waiting… and waiting. And of course, a season of much grace, abundant blessing, and much of HIM. If I had to choose one analogy for this season, it would undoubtedly have to be the process of pregnancy and the nesting period leading up to birth. I feel like God has literally gone into full-blast nesting mode over my life this past year, clearing out the unnecessary things, removing clutter, realigning priorities, feeding me with the good stuff, preparing me to be His womb on this earth. And that’s the job of true intercessors, isn’t it? To be His womb on this earth, birthing His will and plans.
That’s about all I can share of my past year. I know it’s not much, but I hope it did give some sort of account for my relative silence. Now that that’s been said, there is one thing I’m allowed to share and that’s what I’m going to be writing to you today.
I know we’ve stepped into a shift in God’s calendar, and we’re now called to faith & pressing-in while we’re here between the-now-and-the-not-yet. I believe each one of us is called to a realignment in our lives this season.
One of the key thoughts I’ve had through this is: “What can I invest in that’s eternal?” The words of King Solomon keep coming back to me as I take stock on what we spend our time, money, energy, mind & heart space, on. Vanity, vanity, all is vanity. We spend most of our lives on things that only last a lifetime, and once we’re gone it’s gone. Is life really meant to chase after such futility? What’s the point of living, of even trying, then? Is this the eternal life Jesus died for?
Holy discontent is good, for it pushes us out of comfort/complacency and into a journey into the mysteries of God to seek the so-much-more. I’ve prayed, waited on (wrestled with) God, had many conversations with Alex, and read the book of Ecclesiastes. I’ve found much comfort in the book of Ecclesiastes as I’ve wrangled with the questions & thoughts on eternity and how that impacts life on earth… or perhaps how life on earth intersects with the eternal. I don’t think I have it even remotely figured out, but I do feel like I’m starting to find some peace and I wanted to share some simple thoughts here.
Below I have listed the things we chase after, and spend much of ourselves in pursuit of. There are 2 ways we chase after each item on the list: the vanity, and the eternal. Vanity is what is temporal, fleeting, fading. Eternal is what lasts forever.
I am not saying that we should just live in the eternal, self-care be damned. I do believe we need to take care of body, soul, and spirit. But what I am hoping to point us to is the focus, the priority, in our lives. Do we give ourselves more to the temporal? Are we investing in the eternal?
- Hair: A color job lasts a few month, tops. Hair treatments, hair cuts, hair styles, don’t last more than a few months, and then they have to be done all over again.
- Skin: It changes from our teens, 20s, 30s, 50s.. the products, care, and treatments we need are ever changing and, dare I say it, ever growing.
- Nails: How long does a manicure last before it needs to be done again? We cut our nails every week/every other week, and then we do it all over again. Perfect example of temporality and the futility of one’s actions.
- Clothes: What impact does dressing well have in heaven? Does it matter, in the grand scheme of things, how many nice clothes & accessories we own? Does that impact earth or heaven in any good, long-term way?
(Note: again, I am not proposing that we all let ourselves go and turn back into cavement. I am simply attempting to highlight how much of our time and money go into things that really don’t last)
- A gentle & quiet spirit: “Your beauty should not come from outward adornment, such as elaborate hairstyles and the wearing of gold jewelry or fine clothes. Rather, it should be that of your inner self, the unfading beauty of a gentle and quiet spirit, which is of great worth in God’s sight.” 1 Peter 3
- The fear of the Lord: “Charm is deceptive, and beauty is fleeting; but a woman who fears the Lord is to be praised.” Proverbs 31
- Wisdom & good judgment: Story of Abigail & David, 1 Samuel 25
- Fame & popularity: In this day and age, anyone gets their five-minutes of fame and anything goes viral… and is forgotten tomorrow. Fame is too unstable, temporal, and temperamental a promise to stake much of life upon.
- Influence: The heart of man is fickle. Jesus would not entrust Himself to man because He knew what was in the heart of man (John 2). Even Julius Caesar noted that whose who cheer for you today can jeer at you tomorrow.
- Control: Is an illusion. No man is control of anything or anyone, only God is. Those who go to war for power and control will spend the rest of their lives fighting to keep it.
- Doing good to others, even those who hurt us: “To those who by perseverance in doing good seek glory, honor, and immortality, He will give eternal life.” Romans 2
- Jesus Christ: He is our eternal life (John 3:16, Romans 6:23). Invest in your intimate relationship with Him. “Martha, Martha… few things are needed – or indeed only one. Mary has chosen what is better, and it will not be taken away from her.” Luke 10
- Being faithful to speak the truth, even when it’s unpopular: “In the presence of God and of Christ Jesus, who will judge the living and the dead, and in view of his appearing and his kingdom, I give you this charge: Preach the word; be prepared in season and out of season; correct, rebuke and encourage – with great patience and careful instruction. For the time will come when people will not put up with sound doctrine. Instead, to suit their own desires, they will gather around them a great number of teachers to say what their itching ears want to hear. They will turn their ears away from the truth and turn aside to myths. But you, keep your head in all situations, endure hardship, do the work of an evangelist, discharge all the duties of your ministry.” 2 Timothy 4
- Material posessions
- Feeling good
- Adventures & experiences
We all know how fleeting these things are. I don’t think I have to go deeper into how the pursuit of these have absolutely no impact on the eternal.
- Being faithful to stay righteous, even amongst evil: “For I am already being poured out like a drink offering, and the time for my departure is near. I have fought the good fight, I have finished the race, I have kept the faith. Now there is in store for me the crown of righteousness, which the Lord, the righteous Judge, will award to me on that day—and not only to me, but also to all who have longed for his appearing.” 2 Timothy 4
- Love: For love never fails. Love remains. When we love God & others above ourselves, we invest in eternal crowns.
“Look, I have increased in wisdom more than anyone who has ruled over Jerusalem before me; I have experienced much of wisdom and knowledge. Then I applied myself to the understanding of wisdom, and also of madness and folly, but I learned that this, too, is a chasing after the wind.” Ecclesiastes 1
- The word of God: “Heaven and earth will pass away, but My words will never pass away.” Matthew 24, Mark 13, Luke 21
- The Kingdom of God: “See that you do not refuse him who is speaking. For if they did not escape when they refused him who warned them on earth, much less will we escape if we reject him who warns from heaven. At that time his voice shook the earth, but now he has promised, “Yet once more I will shake not only the earth but also the heavens.” This phrase, “Yet once more,” indicates the removal of things that are shaken—that is, things that have been made—in order that the things that cannot be shaken may remain. Therefore let us be grateful for receiving a kingdom that cannot be shaken, and thus let us offer to God acceptable worship, with reverence and awe, for our God is a consuming fire.” Hebrews 12
Clearly, the list is non-exhaustive. And each of us will focus on different aspects, according to the journey God has for us.
For me, I want to begin to intentionally invest in the following eternal things: the fear of the Lord, wisdom & good judgment, doing good to others even when it’s hard, righteousness, intimacy with Jesus, and the Kingdom of God.
I challenge you to sit before God over the next few days. Ask Him to reveal to you some of the eternal pursuits He would you have you spend your time, energy, and resources on. It is an important exercise for each child of God to have, especially as we are living in urgent days and we need to be building our lives on what is unshakable!
Praying for each one of you, I really do <3
As we stepped into 2018, I kept hearing these words, “Overcoming the giants”.
The Lord began to show me that for many of His people, as you stepped into 2018, it’s like the floodgates have been unleashed and you’re facing one challenge and discouraging setback after another. This has seemed to be in direct contradiction to the hope & great promises you expected for 2018, and these giants have caused many to wonder, “What on earth is going on?”
I sensed the Lord say, “My people need to look past their giants and see the Promised Land is just beyond. They need to have their eyes opened to see that the commander of the hosts of angels is with them, and they are surrounded by angel armies.”
“See, I am sending an angel ahead of you to guard you along the way and to bring you to the place I have prepared... I will send the hornet ahead of you to drive the Hivites, Canaanites and Hittites out of your way. But I will not drive them out in a single year, because the land would become desolate and the wild animals too numerous for you. Little by little I will drive them out before you, until you have increased enough to take possession of the land.“ Exodus 23: 20 – 30
The giants you’ve been facing have been allowed there by God because His plan is to USE THEM to PREPARE YOU to take your promised land. He is enlarging you till you have increased enough to take authority over your promised land. When God blesses, He adds no sorrow to it – the Good Father is making sure that you are able to handle the magnitude of your blessing when it comes!
In these times, I see 3 different camps of people responding to their giants.
1. Retreat & Runaways
You have felt so overwhelmed and beaten down by fear, discouragement, failure, seeming fruitlessness. The Lord is calling for you to turn back! Pick up your sword and fight again.
Don’t give in to fear, God is with you, God is for you. He will never put you against anything you cannot defeat. You are more than a conqueror, so rise up! Rise up in the strength, boldness, and victorious spirit of God.
Don’t be distracted by the giants that you see. These giants are mere mirages which have no substance, they cannot really hurt you… unless you lend your faith to them, for faith is the substance of things not seen. Do not place your faith in fear of the giants for what you believe is what you will experience. Turn your eyes upward instead, see the hosts of angel armies that surround you!
The commander of hosts of angels is with you. He is fighting for you. Rise up in your spirit. Take charge of your life. Like King David, encourage yourself and let His boldness arise within you.
In the name of Jesus, I pray that your eyes would be open to see the God of angel armies is with you, He is for you, He commands the hosts of angels and they are surrounding you. These giants don’t stand a chance.
I declare in Jesus’ name: Rise up. Rise up in your boldness. Rise up in your identity as a son and daughter of God, and OVERCOME.
2. Paralyzed & Stagnant
I see the second group of people who do not retreat, but neither do you advance. You have been feeling intimidated by these giants and have been thinking, “this is too much for me” which has led you to become paralyzed. The fear of making the wrong move & the fear of failure has caused you to remain where you are.
God doesn’t want that for you! He wants you to advance. He wants you to take new ground, new land. God wants you to move forward.
In the name of Jesus I declare: Enlargement. Rise up and move on!
I see the camp of Israel in the desert and I hear God say, “Pack up! Pack up your tents, your families, your possessions, and move on! Break camp and move on, because whichever land you set foot on God will give to you.”
So I break all paralysis off of you in Jesus’ name. I break off lethargy, fear, and anxiety that causes you to remain stagnant.
I speak life and the fire of God that will motivate and embolden you to move forward.
I declare that the roar of the Lion of Judah is just going to burst from you, go forth and consume the enemy in Jesus’ name.
3. Overcomer & Conqueror
No matter what giants have come against you, you have discerned the lies of the enemy and have held on to the truth that only the Almighty God overshadows you. Under the Spirit of the sovereign Lord, you have continued to move forward.
I sense the Lord saying to you, “Well done, My good and faithful servants. You have been faithful with everything I’ve entrusted you with.”
I see that you have kept on fighting. I see your battle scars. I see that you are weary sometimes but you keep putting one foot in front of the other, and the Lord is so pleased with you. Keep going, keep up the good work.
In the name of Jesus I release to this group the supernatural spirit of God – the seven-fold spirit of God – to encourage, empower, and energize you and to fill you afresh so you can keep running after Him.
We are in a time and season where God has called His children to OVERCOME their giants and take their Promised Land. 2018 will be the year that you see your Promised Land, but it comes with a condition: Will you choose to overcome the giants that have been set in your path? Will you overcome and enter your promised land?
This is a promise that is available to every single child of God if we would overcome.
So I pray for all of us right now in the name of Jesus, “Lord, you would open our eyes to see and our ears to hear that You are the God victorious. You are sovereign Lord over all the earth and You command hosts of angel armies. You are for us and You are not against us. You will command Your angels concerning us to guard us in all our ways. Teach us Lord to partner with You. Teach us to partner with Your angels. Teach us to overcome, give us the overcomers spirit. Give us eyes to see, ears to hear, hearts to understand what You are doing so that we will respond in due time in season and RISE UP. In Jesus’ name, amen.”
(original prophetic word delivered in this video. prophecy begins at 02:23)
I’ve been sensing the Lord speak about Wisdom and how important it is for us His children – His last-days army – to walk in heavenly wisdom that is above human wisdom.
“The beginning of wisdom is this: Get wisdom. Though it cost all you have, get understanding.”
Breaking The Mold
“I am breaking the mold of human wisdom.
My people are going to begin to find that the way things used to be just don’t work any more. They are beginning to feel the frustration of futility in the things they’ve understood up to this point. The things they’ve known and which have brought them great success in the past — just aren’t going to work any more.
This is My doing. This is a holy discontent that, if they allow, will draw them deeper into the Mystery of My being. The deeper they dive, the more they will begin to operate in My wisdom instead of human wisdom.
Human wisdom & understanding is just not going to cut it in what I’m about to do. The new things I have planned will completely shatter paradigms of the past. It’s not going to work if My people try to fit My new move into old patterns of thinking, old paradigms of understanding, and old ways of doing things.
It is no longer going to work by “the way it’s always been done”. Even all human “cutting-edge” ideas & strategies just will not be able to keep up. You need to lean on heavenly wisdom, not the wisdom of man no matter how advanced it is. I am coming to do a new thing in a whole new way.
I am breaking the mold of human wisdom, and it is going to require that My people are totally dependent on Me. I am doing this new thing so that My people would walk so closely with My Spirit. That is the only way that they can succeed. Without faith it is impossible to do the work that please Me. Sometimes, My wisdom seems simple and unassuming compared to the world’s cutting-edge strategies. But remember, sometimes the most profound truths are found in simplicity. I use the weak and foolish things to shame those who are wise in the world.
My children, let go of your need to understand everything. Let go of your dependence on ten-step plans and tried-and-true strategies. Let go of the weight of trying to figure it our on your own, and come to Me.
Many of you have grown weary, frustrated, discouraged. It has seemed like one closed door after another, one failed attempt upon failure. Be encouraged. That is My mercy at work in your life. In My mercy, I am
Run to Me, seek Me. I hold the mysteries of the universe and I want to make them known to you, one layer at a time. I don’t just mean spiritual mysteries, but also blueprints in science, art, business, parenting, and every other area of life. Depend wholly on Me in all areas of your life, big and small.
It’s going to be challenging. It’s going to take a lot of surrender and weaning off of old thinking patterns. But My grace will empower all who choose to respond. My Spirit will guide you into it.
My wisdom will protect you. In uncharted territories, My wisdom will be your road map. And mark My words, you are going to be charting new territories. But that is only possible if you surrender your understanding in exchange for My wisdom.
Will you allow Me to break you – your mindsets, paradigms, securities, strategies, plans – and take you into a new dimension of heavenly wisdom?”
Wisdom To Steward The Bumper Crop
“In agriculture, a bumper crop is a crop that has yielded an unusually productive harvest. A bumper crop can also be a source of problems, such as when there is insufficient storage space & resources for an overlarge crop.”
“I am about to release a bumper crop of harvest across the earth. My Church needs to ask My Holy Spirit for wisdom to steward this bumper crop.
Many are praying for revival and calling out for reformation, but not many are ready for it when it comes.
Is My Church prepared to handle the outpouring of My Glory? Are My People ready for the floodgates to be opened? Are you prepared to have your world and everything you’ve ever known to be turned upside-down inside-out? That’s what the wave of My Glory will do. Have you counted the cost, do you truly want this?
The only way you will be ready is if you choose to partner with Holy Spirit, letting Him lead you and show you deep & unsearchable things you do not yet know. Then, you will live a life of continual wonder, adventure, and still be in the safest place in the whole world — Me.
I’m preparing you now to walk in heavenly wisdom so that you can steward well My release of the bumper crop. So that you will not be overwhelmed.
My children, start praying. Pray for the Lord of the harvest to send the harvest, prepare the harvesters, and give you wisdom to steward the bumper crop that’s about to come.”
Wisdom Is A Person
“Do not forsake wisdom, and she will protect you; love her, and she will watch over you.”
Proverbs 4: 6
“Wisdom is My Holy Spirit.
It is not an elusive concept, nor a theological principle. Wisdom is a person, and wisdom wants to be your best friend.
Get to know My Holy Spirit. Walk by the Spirit. Then you will know what it means to break the mold of human wisdom, living by the Spirit instead of the flesh.
Be led by My Holy Spirit. He is your counselor, best friend, teacher, helper, guide, and everything you need to navigate this whole new world with.
I’ve been hearing the Lord declare, “No more abortions, no more miscarriages! No more aborted dreams. No more aborted callings. No more aborted gifts-made-full in My people’s lives!”
I saw the Lord rise up in righteous indignation at the stolen/lost destinies and dreams that belong to His people. He will tolerate no longer. The gavel has fallen, God the righteous Judge has decreed, “Give My people back what is theirs!”
“God has set eternity in the hearts of men.” — Ecclesiastes 3:11
This is the season God will begin teaching us how to take back our rightful inheritance in Jesus. If we will humble ourselves and let Holy Spirit be our Teacher, we’ll learn how to birth to fruition the seeds of eternity that God planted in our hearts from the moment we were conceived.
Battle of the Mind
“Consecrate yourselves, for tomorrow the Lord will do amazing things among you.” — Joshua 3:5
The Lord showed me that one of the greatest things holding His children back from their destinies is the issue of Belief. I saw so many have been tied down with ropes of “disbelief”, “doubt”, “confusion”, “fear”, “distorted reality”, “deception” where the enemy has sought to overpower them in the battle of the mind. These ropes not only tie them down but cut into their flesh, tormenting them and turning them to torment others. Many don’t even know there is a battle raging, and have simply relinquished victory to the enemy. Some have put up a good fight, but have grown weary of doing good and given up.
But I hear the Lord decree, “No more! Freedom!!” Jesus, in a suit of blazing white light and a sword in His hand, is coming to set the captives free. He has come to break the chains and cut off the ropes! He stands before each prisoner and asks, “Are you willing?” Some will choose to remain in their bondage of deception, but all who say “Yes, Lord!” will be set free. I see that those who are loosed from captivity will be taken to a place like paradise for a season, full of rolling green hills and new life. There, they will drink and be refreshed, be nursed back to health and strengthened. Then Jesus will call on them to march back to the prison where they came from — this time not as captives, but as warriors to set other captives free.
Then I see a group of brave men and women rising from the dirt. These are the faithful ones, who have held onto Truth and stood firm in Faith. Through the fiery darts and flaming arrows they have steadily marched forward. Some have lost their lives for this cause. Many have lost family, wealth, and even their own health. These are the devoted lovers of God who have loved God even unto death, and have completely died to self so Jesus might increase in them. I see the Jesus the Prince of Peace smile with great joy upon these ones, His faithful trusted ones. With great delight and compassion, the Captain of the Army of the Lord gives a mighty shout that reverberates across the desert land and slays all the enemy armies with one sound. That shout brings a mighty wind of refreshing that gently lifts up these faithful soldiers. The wounds on their bodies are transformed to iridescent gold so they shine like the many colors of heaven. Every grief, persecution, sacrifice… all that were once scars, become beautiful swathes of colored gold. “So beautiful to Me,” Jesus smiles in rapture.
Don’t Let Mistakes Of The Past Hold You Back
Then I heard the Lord say, “My love is greater than your failures. Don’t let the shame and mistakes of your past hold you back. The greatest downfall of Adam and Eve wasn’t when they ate the forbidden fruit, but when they felt that they had to hide from Me. If only they had run to Me in their failure… if only they had hidden in Me and let Me make them whole again. Learn from My servant David — I am the God who turned his greatest folly with Bathsheba into a source of greatest wisdom Solomon.”
God convicts but never condemns us. Let us respond to admonishment by running to Him! He wants to turn our aborted dreams and destinies into life-giving testimonies of His power, grace, and love!
It is time to cross over. God is moving you out of the wilderness and into the promised land. Would you say Yes to Him?